Woh, quite a long break since i last update.
nothing much to update anyway, too busy with studies last semester, now busy enjoying the holidays. receive results 2 week ago and even though i still did not achieve first class, i am contented with my own performance. Now need to work harder to stay in the high region.

While i didn't do any internship this holidays, i still seem to be quite occupied with activities, from volunteering to gatherings to short vacations. Indeed a good break.

Post a song here.. i doubt anyone will know what song it is:

Untruthfully, your commitment drifts away with the westerly wind;
I daydream naively. My trust for you fades like a wilting flower;
A single spark can set a prairie ablaze. my amorous eyes once brightened up your darkened sky;
A bolt of lightening strikes from that clear blue sky, when you forsake me the moment I most desperately needed you.

We are worn away by the conflict between love and hate. The origin of such hardships is unknown;
We silently endure the ups and downs, the sadness and happiness of our lives. In time, our pain shall be set free.

Untruthfully, your perplexed expression burrows eternally within the corners of my mind and soul;
Speechlessly, the return of my devotion to you is that of a barren and desolated mountain top;
Innately, the pureness of my heart beats for you with a rhythm so violently passionate;
Uncontrollably, my yearning for you is shattered by the absence of your love.

Yesterday seems weird. I dont know if it is because of my emotions that resulted in this feeling. Or just imaginery thoughts. I received a call from my cca friend to help pack up the booth temporarily. So as i was walking from engine to central library, i met an old friend. But i was just thinking about her the other day. So is she the one? I dont know. Somehow I didn't feel anything back then. I only know that I always have a slight feeling for her because i like her personality and admire the values she has. But there isnt much opportunity because we are both busy with our own schedule. Unless we meet again often, else it is not fate.

Anyway, Andy Lau's shaolin movie is nice. Very long never watch his show, and its nice when Jackie Chan is the guest actor. The spirit of shaolin is in everyone's heart. Time to enlighten!

Thanks to those who care and remember. A simple thought is all that i wanted. In the midst of forest, I found true gems worth treasuring. I hereby give my sincere Thanks.

Nice song for the clean and green publicity:
Is this Heaven on Earth?
Why have we forgotten?
Does our heaven deserve
All the pain we've given?
We've all got to change
Before it's too late
Save our Earth
Before she fades away

Best Regards,
set

海 内 存 知 己 ， 天 涯 若 比 邻

literally lost? really lost?

looking at the circumstances, is it due to my action that results in this reaction, or my reaction to an action.

i can't tell, have used to keeping to myself, and thinking again, is this action resulting this lonely reaction or quietness lead to independence? or wanting to be independent prevents the other side.

confused? fated like capricorns? or all in the genes? one's destiny? the problem with emotions? i wonder.

am i wrong? am i right? what should i do? only i will know.. but do i want to know, am i weird or am i unique, i need to know.

dont know. thats all.

Was it 2 months ago since i last logged in? i suppose so... reading back the past 6 months of entry made me recap a little of my life.

Now waiting for the release of results for sem3... but seriously i am not looking forward to it. I think it is the 1st time i am not hoping to receive results... simply because it is a disappointing sem. Maybe there will be miracles... but i know for one module.. it will not be great.

So i have thought of changing the equation... and i seem to have some revelations on the true meaning of learning. I have invested about 2 sems of my time in DCC... the program has good potential and will still be... but currently it is still not working for me... so time to go back to basics since the profs are not giving much guidance that i need. Your time is up... time to rethink my own learning style.

A friend of mine was talking about being appreciated for one's efforts. This is a common senario that i also face. Sometimes being open-hearted and let others take a small advantage is a small issue because you will gain something out of it... but too much of it will give me a good reason to cut the person off totally. And don't expect me to forgive the person if it ever reach that stage.

one can never please everybody, we need to be selective or else we are just wasting unecessary time achieving nothing at the end of the day.

it's a pity my background is not so open... i have a feeling its a generation gap... always having problems connecting with people.

This sem is crazy.... seriously, the more i look at my timetable, that crazier it is. Lessons are nicely scheduled in the morning. Mon 9am to 1pm, Tue 8am to 1pm, Wed 8am to 1pm, Thur 10am to 12pm/6pm on alternate weeks, Fri 9am to 1pm.

But with my hunger for knowledge in the DCC program, my Wed and Fri afternoon are occupied with lab. Two mondays will have signals lab, then Tue is my cca from 6pm to 10pm. This one i have to go because i need to set a good example with the commitment i made previously. Then now come wed cs1102c extra help session from 6.30pm to 8pm. Hmm.... with extra activities such as meetings and outings.... i seriously have a difficult job to find time for myself and my homework :(

and i am always rushing for time such that i am often late for many lessons...and this is not my standard.... a very poor effort... now i can only move on..

just finish a midterm quiz today.... so for this weekend, at least i can breathe a little and write this entry. tmr have an extra lab session to attend... then very soon it will be monday blues.... whatever.... living in a conflicting life now.. grades not a priority now, it is the learning and understanding of concepts that is important, and the grades will follow accordingly

Today went to play badminton with sec sch friends... hmm... really a very very long time since i played... i think the last time i played was during sec sch... and that was like 6 years ago?!?! ... Always good to reminisce the old days and try the activities again, the kind of feeling just feels nice.

Anyway, I was reading this book on keeping your room clean.... then it was saying the magic of scent can transform the env. Some egs are frankincense and myrrh, sage, rosemarry, copal, cedal and sweetgrass. Rosemary was used during the Middle Ages in Europe to ward off the plague.... very interesting knowledge... and i had a laugh because right now i am learning all the peripherals of computer hardware.. spi, i2c, i2s, uart, usb, sd blah blah... lol... really a human living in another era... we have evolve a long way... it will be increasingly rare to find pple with wealth of knowledge of plants and trees.

Right now i feel happy for my friends who are attached and keep the love go round. Also feel happy for a friend for topping his cohort, just keeps me motivated to do my best and live with no regrets.

I found a deeper understanding of my own insecurity too, and how insecurity leads to one's behaviour. A simple remedy to this feeling is probably just contentment, to be glad with what we have, and accomplish more challenging tasks at our own ability, and still remember and treasure what we have.

It's the feeling.